So I went over to FCA this evening, and on the way I realized how easy most of life is for me. I realize how obnoxiously self-gratifying that is, but hear me out... Almost everything in life I have tried has been easy. Academics are easy. I have a high GPA and it could easily be higher. For the most part, relationships are "easy" as in I usually know what to do or what to say. on and on it goes, there isn't much in life that is difficult for me to accomplish. The one thing that is never easy is my relationship with my heavenly father. I don't think I should EXPECT it to be easy, but I guess I just can't adjust to the idea... I dunno why.
I dunno... I know what I need to do, I've always known... it's just a matter of doing it.